I’m Not ‘Blessed’

I cannot believe it’s been almost a full year since I last blogged. I was doing fairly well with juggling school studies + recreational writing until I got halfway through the ultrasound program and things really started to pick up. But I’m officially DONE with school (which feels nuts to write) and I am so ready to pick it back up.

The past year has probably been one of the best in my life. I passed my SPI exam, interned at an amazing hospital, graduated college, quit serving, and got offered a full-time position and passed my first registry last week.. like, what? I try to opt out of saying ‘ I’m blessed’ because while I am indeed blessed, I think there are soo many more words you can use to give glory to God for what He has done in your life than just falling back on that simple phrase. Truly… The Lord has been SO good to me. Let me explain just how good.

Two years ago at this time, I was in the middle of taking prerequisite courses at Cypress College and hoping to apply into their incredibly prestigious ultrasound program within the coming months. To be exact, I was taking an anatomy & physiology class that would heavily sway my GPA, which was the largest factor in my acceptance into the ultrasound program. But… I ended the class with an 88.4. I was 1.6% away from an A. This swung my GPA from the middle-higher side of the spectrum to the middle-lower end. I met with my professor, academic counselors & counselors from the program & I begged (literally) for something I could do to boost my grade that 1 percent. I HAD TO get an A in this class to get into the program. Every single person I met with told me that my grade was final, and that if I wanted to get into the program, I would need to retake the course and get an A. But the twist was that I would have to take it at a different school seeing as though Cypress obviously doesn’t allow you to retake a course you got a B in. You have to fail to retake a course.

So… you’re saying I have to go enroll into another college, to retake a course I just completed, just for a 1% difference in my grade? And miss the application period for the program and wait until next year? And then what? Just hope I get in? What if I don’t? 

There really was no plan B for me. I had planned on going to Cypress and going to their ultrasound program and I didn’t have a back up plan. My perfect plan had literally just gone up in flames over a 1% difference in my grade. I remember coming home that afternoon and my dad came into my room as I sat on the edge of my bed and cried. I was so disappointed in myself. I felt like I finally knew what I wanted to do with my life and then this door was just slammed in my face.

I. was. crushed.

In the coming days, my dad would bring his laptop into my room and show me the different schools in the area offering ultrasound programs. To make a long story short, we found a private school in LA that by the grace of God was accepting applications at any time an started new classes every several months. I was accepted & started the long journey to where I’m at today.

The next year and a half would be the most academically, mentally, physically (that commute to LA…👎🏼) challenging years. I wish I would have kept up blogging throughout the program & especially through clinicals because I learned SO much during that season. In the fist week of January, I passed my Physics board exam – a requirement to graduate the program and something one must pass before being able to take any registry exams. In March, I began my clinical rotation at the hospital – which truly changed my life and my perspective on life. I got to work with INCREDIBLE women in the ultrasound department who taught me so much. I got to hold NICU babies weighing just over 2 pounds and scan their brain. Scan many, many moms in the middle of miscarrying. I got to hold the hand of many people during ultrasound guided procedures — people like a 35 year old father of 6 who became a paraplegic after a motorcycle accident… the type of things that will truly change your perspective forever. I returned to school in August for my final term of review classes. I was offered a full-time job in September (a story for another post) and finished October 4th. And just this past week… I passed my first registry exam and got my license in Obstetrics & Gynecology. I officially became a Registered Diagnostic Medical Sonographer, adding the 4 letters of ‘R.D.M.S’ behind my name forever! What is this life that I get to call mine?!

Just two years ago, my tiny little mind was blown and crushed by things not going my way. Believe me when I say that I TRULY did not know what was going to come next. Over the next two years, God took me up, down, and all around to get me where I am today. Not once, not ONE single time in the process was I ever able to foresee what was coming next. When I was in school, I had NO idea where I would end up for my internship but I prayed for a good site. When I was in clinicals, I desperately wanted for a job to come out of the woodwork from somewhere. When I was studying for my board exam that I just took, I was SO anxious I wouldn’t pass. But God truly kept my path straight. I was placed at an amazing hospital when I was so scared about getting a good site. I was offered not just any job, but a FULL TIME one when I was scared I wouldn’t even be able to find part time work. And finally, I passed my board exam when I was so scared I wouldn’t. None of this is by my own doing, but absolutely the Lord’s. Proverbs 3:5-6 is a verse I have heard my whole life and known full well, but never relied on until these past two years. It says,

“Trust in the Lord with all of your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways, acknowledge Him, and He will make your path straight“.  Gosh, this could not ring more true for me. So let me conclude by saying, I don’t see what God has done in my life and explain by only saying “I’m blessed”. No, that is a far cry, a total cop-out of the truth of the matter. I am provided for – abundantly. I am well taken care of. God has been and is so, so FAITHFUL to His promises to me for my life. God is evident in my life. He has granted me the deepest desires of my heart, and then some. My cup overflows… truly. And boy have I ever learned His plans are so much bigger, and better, than mine.

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